I don't exactly know how to start this posting since it has been a while since my last post and a lot of things have happened since then. At first there was hope of a wonderful time spending AKON and my birthday with my best friend in Texas. I wish that the news had been good after that... that my best friend Chris aka Maliciously Creative aka Evil Twin aka Ecchidaime aka Mumma (as friends and nieces would call her) was laughing at me from the next room either because she was watching Ranma or Reborn and wanted to share with me about the crazy antics of said show... or possibly the fact that she stole the property I was eyeing on Monopoly on Pogo Online. Most often times I would retaliate and laugh back at her... she would call me bitch and plan takeover of all my properties by evil hotel place-age. She had a really funny laugh and we would often talk about what we wanted to do with our stories, sing together in the car often with 80s songs that we wished wouldn't play so often (Madonna's 'Like a Prayer' cause really their is only so many times you can hear a song like that without wanting to break your skull against the cd player) and going to places that she liked to eat where often times the healthiest thing was the diet coke or ice tea I was drinking (Texas is not an easy place to loose weight in-in fact I think I gained some)

Sorry I guess I am getting off topic which I often do. But the worst thing happened on June 6, 2009 (2 days after my birthday) My best friend and Evil Twin died. She often said that we shared brains which was often times scary and weird cause we would finish each others thoughts or say things out loud that the other was thinking... not I can't help but feel the quiet. I didn't want something like this to happen and its hard to think of what I will do since I can't talk to her or send her a text about what I am thinking.

I will say that attending the wake and funeral was the worst. Having to see her body lying there cold made me think of such stupid thoughts of shaking her awake or turning her into a zombie and helping her to stay alive by eating her relatives... I think part of that came from the fact that her mother was turning the whole event into something she wanted and not what Chris wanted, but I did somewhat get my 2 cents in with the time capsule. I made sure it carried notes that others had written including a yaoi novel she liked, Batzmaru which was her moniker, Naruto character pins, a sake flag, japanese fan, silver ring and Dr Pepper. The Dr Pepper was because if anyone knew Chris they knew of her addiction to the drink... in fact it was what she was drinking the night before.

I find myself lost after the fact and incapable of finding words... thats why it took me so long to comment here. I haven't given up on my stories but I hope you understand if I don't get back to them right away. But I know if Chris was here she would want me to finish them since she couldn't finish her own.

Chris loved life and above all loved Dr Pepper and YAOI, she was fiercely protective of those she cared about and she was loved more than she knew... or maybe she does now because I like to think she is up in Heaven doing the things she loved most and laughing at the fact that everyone is still stuck down here (joke) . I don't regret my time or having met her but I will regret not having done more with her because she will be missed greatly.



I know that she wouldn't have liked the fact that I left Texas and am now back in California, but I hope she understands that the only reason I went there was to be with her... I will have to leave it at that because I don't think I can write anymore. So I will talk to you all later.